You'll figure it out. And you don't have to be alone. I know I'm an outsider and I don't get even half of what happened to you kids, but if there's something I can do.
[He's got to stop reaching out to the poor, damaged younger people this way. He's in no position to help anyone. But he's older, and he did the kind of thing they did longer, even if not to the extremes so many of them seem to have. Somehow, quite suddenly, he's become Ramse to so many little Coles, and he is not qualified for the part of Ramse.]
He's coming back too. We're managing.
Peeta's probably gonna blame himself when his head clears up, even when none of it's his fault. That's the hardest part to break through.
[ which is to say that katniss trusts him. she tends to gravitate toward older people anyway. all her proposed allies for the quarter quell were well past the bloom of youthfulness. it's just something she can relate to better. the weariness, maybe. knowing what it takes to look after something and somebody else. ]
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he used to be so gentle. i never was. i could've handled it better
Well it's easier to say than believe. But he sounds like a good person, and they're the ones who can come back.
[He's seen evil so deep that there's no back for them, felt it in the presence of the Army. Seen madness that worked so hard to blot out good that it only shone through in brief, beautiful moments of struggle. He really doesn't think Peeta is resigned to either fate.]
[ haymitch once told her she could live a thousand lifetimes and not be worthy of peeta and she wasn't upset because she knows it's true. he's better than anyone and he doesn't deserve the life he's got.
now that she knows there are other worlds, she can't help but wish for him that he'd been born somewhere kinder, more gentle, so he could've been allowed to grow up soft. ]
[Maybe it's unfair to compare, but he and Cassie came through so much - not unaltered, not by any stretch of the imagination, and it kills him to think of how hard she became. But they came through, and he believes in these two.]
[ that's actually advice she can take and keep. she's stubborn enough to drag both peeta and herself kicking and screaming through this, if she has to. the fear that he might ever just disappear from her is starting to abate, thanks to cole. ]
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[He's got to stop reaching out to the poor, damaged younger people this way. He's in no position to help anyone. But he's older, and he did the kind of thing they did longer, even if not to the extremes so many of them seem to have. Somehow, quite suddenly, he's become Ramse to so many little Coles, and he is not qualified for the part of Ramse.]
He's coming back too. We're managing.
Peeta's probably gonna blame himself when his head clears up, even when none of it's his fault. That's the hardest part to break through.
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[ which is to say that katniss trusts him. she tends to gravitate toward older people anyway. all her proposed allies for the quarter quell were well past the bloom of youthfulness. it's just something she can relate to better. the weariness, maybe. knowing what it takes to look after something and somebody else. ]
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he used to be so gentle. i never was. i could've handled it better
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And now he snaps from Ramse to Cassie. Used to be so gentle. I never was.]
All you can give people is what you've got. Doesn't make it any less of a gift.
[If only he could believe the same of himself.]
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[ which means that katniss would hug him if she hugged, but she doesn't and they aren't together anyway. faint praise is the next closest she gets. ]
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[He's seen evil so deep that there's no back for them, felt it in the presence of the Army. Seen madness that worked so hard to blot out good that it only shone through in brief, beautiful moments of struggle. He really doesn't think Peeta is resigned to either fate.]
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[ haymitch once told her she could live a thousand lifetimes and not be worthy of peeta and she wasn't upset because she knows it's true. he's better than anyone and he doesn't deserve the life he's got.
now that she knows there are other worlds, she can't help but wish for him that he'd been born somewhere kinder, more gentle, so he could've been allowed to grow up soft. ]
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Then he'll be back for sure. You can't wipe that out, just mess it up for a bit.
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[ she honestly couldn't trace a straight line from between their meeting to her trusting him like this, but here they are. ]
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[Maybe it's unfair to compare, but he and Cassie came through so much - not unaltered, not by any stretch of the imagination, and it kills him to think of how hard she became. But they came through, and he believes in these two.]
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[ that's actually advice she can take and keep. she's stubborn enough to drag both peeta and herself kicking and screaming through this, if she has to. the fear that he might ever just disappear from her is starting to abate, thanks to cole. ]
i'll be ok if he's ok
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